Blessed, to say the least

This year has been an incredible year. Although I was faced with many challenges I have been blessed with so much.
In May of this year I officially became a mother. I brought life into this world and the feeling was and still is indescribable. I have never knew or felt this kind of love. My boy is the best thing to ever happen to me.
As the another year closes, I find myself in great spirits. Usually this time of year I’m unhappy, struggling to get myself out of a mess I created, other times I was hanging on a ledge by a thread. But no matter what it was, I got through it and because of my past experiences of saddens around the holidays I normally find myself dreading it.
Maybe it’s the grace of my son but this holiday season I am ecstatic. I feel like a kid again. I’m even loving the rain (which is quite unusual for me).
I haven’t been the luckiest person, but I’ve been blessed with an abundance of love and that i couldn’t ask for anything more.
Today after a meeting I saw a lady sitting on the dirty floors of Bart with a sign asking for help while holding her crying child. It literally broke my heart into a million pieces. While giving her some help I found myself fighting back tears. I can only imagine what she was going through. As I walked off still trying to fight back tears I found myself feeling blessed. I am unemployed (or was smiley face), but I had a roof over my head, I was lost (I’m not completely found but I’m getting there), but now I’m finding my way, I’ve lost important relationships (and wish I didn’t lose so many good friends), but I’ve gained better ones, and although I have been ungrateful many times, The Lord continues to give me more than I could ever ask for. Life is going to suck sometimes but despite the struggles I am blessed and if you’re reading this, you are too! “Count your blessings not your problems”
I can’t wait to get a more stable position and pay so I can give back more…